I came up with the idea to blog about my miscarriage journey weeks ago. But then I ran from it, making up every excuse why I shouldn’t do it – no one will read it, do people really care about someone else’s life? Everyone has their own problems, why make a song and dance about mine? Do I really want my private life out in the open for everyone to see and form an opinion on? And if I did do it, where on earth do I start?!
But last week, with my due date approaching, I bit the bullet. I found a free blogging tool, I created my blog name and I started writing. With some help and encouragement from Kim Bansi (of kimdeepandmeaningful), I did it. It’s out there. My blog. My life. Its out there. Launched from my local café Lounge Fifteen, ironically surrounded by an NCT reunion (mother and baby group for those without kids)!
As I tucked into my chicken, pesto and mozzarella panini (delicious I must say) the notifications began to ping. People are looking at my page, people are reading my story, people are interested. I felt overcome and shed a solitary tear.
And it hasn’t stopped, over 4,000 views in one day! And I’ve actually lost track of the comments. I don’t quite know what I’ve started, but I’m just gonna roll with it. God knows what he’s doing, even if I don’t!
Thank you so much for taking the time to like, comment, send a private message and share my blog. I am relieved. I am overwhelmed. But most of all I feel like I have been given approval to continue talking, talking about something so taboo yet so real and profound.
This is a moment that will stay with me for some time and gives me the motivation to continue writing for as long as you keep reading. Thank you.
So sad. You are such a strong person. I believe in miracles, one day you will have a baby on earth and not in heaven. God bless you
Thank you. That is my wish for all who suffer any form of baby loss. God bless xxx
Hi gurinder, I to have suffered the loss of a baby I was 38wks pregnant when I have birth to my daughter jade who was stillborn it’s the most painful life shattering thing to go through my daughter was born on 11/11/91 she would have been 25 nextweek it still feels like yesterday when I had to register her birth & death and arrainge her funeral , two year after having jade I gave birth to my son whom is now 23 oh he is so special to me and I went on to have a beautiful daughter who is now 15, jade has and forever will be with me, I wish you all the best and maybe see you in lounge fifteen . X
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Awww Julie. I am so glad you got your rainbow babies, but so sad for your loss too. There are things you never think you’ll have to do in life like registering the death of a child or arranging their funeral…I wouldn’t wish that on anyone. Out of interest, and you don’t have to answer if you don’t feel like it, but do you do something to mark Jade’s birthday each year?
Yes, if you see me in Lounge Fifteen, please come over, I’d love to talk to you. xxx